Thursday, October 21, 2010

Life

What is life to you? My life is full of pain today. Why is she ignoring me? What is my wrong? Why don't you tell me what is my wrong before making judgement whether to ignore me or not. At least, you must tell me what is my wrong so that I can correct myself. It is so painful when you are ignoring me. I put you as my friend whom I trusted in my college life but you've make my life into a painful one. Can you tell me what is my wrong? Is this a real life? No pain, no gain. Is it really true? If it is true, it is too painful for me.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Bad Day!!

I had a bad day today!!! So STRESS!!! Why is everyone blaming me? Am I the only wrong one? The tutor scolded me for other people's fault. It is not my problem if they don't want to study. Is it also my problem if they don't want to listen to others? Why must pretty people get more attention and people keeps blaming others when  actually the pretty one who is not doing work and CAN'T do work. I really feeling like want to run away from all this problem. I never ask for this post. All of you gave it to me. Do you think I want to bear such BIG responsibility. When I throw a tantrum, I have a reason for it. It is not as if I love to throw tantrum. Everyone thinks that I'm selfish but it is for your own good. When I'm doing it for your own good, YOU back stabbed me as if I don't have feeling. I have a HEART and also FEELINGS. Why nobody understands my feeling? WHY? WHY? Is all the leader getting the same problem? If I was given a choice, I would rather be a normal people. LORD, please HELP me.. I really can't stand it any more.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Saturday

I'm supposed to be at home enjoying my weekends with my family but unfortunately, I have to spend my weekend in KL and doing some work which I don't like to do. I've spent the whole morning walking around Petaling Street and finding for things to be use on Tuesday. It is so tiring till I never get to eat my breakfast and lunch. I really hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Today

Today is Friday. I can't go home today. ARGHH!! Anyway, I had a tiring day with assignments, but, I got to meet Him. I don't know since when this feeling is in me but when I meet him, I had this weird feeling in me. He is not handsome, and he is very quiet but when he starts talking, he is fun to be with. It is so frustrating for me. I really want to get to know him more and wish to be with him, but I know it is impossible because I don't think he even like me. What should I do? I'm trying to push this feeling out of me. Even though, I never get to talk to him more, at least, I got back my best friend in college. She got angry with me and thanks to my friend she is my best friend once again. i really miss her when I fought with her that day. I'm really hoping that we will not fight any more.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Starter

I'm new to blogging but anyway I want to try to write all my feelings into this. So for starting, I'll just start with how is my day today.
I had a really tiring day with three subjects in one go. Besides that, I have to listen to my tutor babble so much that my soul has flown out of my body. The funny thing is my tutor taught us a very nice lesson about how to get a high self-esteem and she thinks she is having a very high self-esteem. It was so irritating when she starts comparing each other. Finally, the time for her to go out of my class arrived. I really thank God for this is her last class with us. It is a real torture to sit in her class. Next, I had Gerontology. Studying of old people and the changes is making me feel like an old lady too. It makes me imagine how will I look like in the future. Anyway, I don't want to think about it any more. Later, I had my break and since, I had nothing to do so I went and bought myself a book " Ain't She Sweet" by Susan Elizabeth Philips. I'm really hoping it will be a nice book. Then, I continued my class and the class ends at 5. It is a relieved for me. Before I go back to my hostel, I met one of my tutor and she saw me and she starts chanting 'Orange, Orange, Orange' because I was wearing an orange T-shirt today. It was so irritating. Anyway, I had an easy today without much pressure. I'm hoping everyday will be the same.
Going to sleep now..hoping it will be a good night sleep..weee..